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♥ Friday, October 02, 2009

Crashed.
It's gone. All's gone. It's a disaster. Everything is broken into pieces. It's not going to be the same again. Not ever. Since long time ago, i have already been worried that this day will happen. Now, it has really happen in our lives. I can't believe that it actually happened. I can't imagine what will become of our lives in the future.
Truthfully speaking, i'm really very scared of losing this family. This family that i have placed first place in my heart. This family that i have been living with for 19 years. This family that i have been spending most of my time with.

From this day onwards, i officially declare that i have lost trust and faith in having a loving and happy family. I don't understand at all. Why do we fall in love and have boyfriends when we are bound to break up one day? Why do we marry and have a family when we are bound to break up one day? Now i finally know that there is no such things as eternal or long-lasting love. I have been such an innocent and naive person, thinking that if i truly believe in it, miralces will occur and eternal love will exist. I am such a laughing stock.

Reality is indeed cruel. Why am i trying so hard to please everyone when my own life is getting worser and worser? Right now, i have no one that i trust to turn to anymore. I can only spill my heart out here. Someone please tell me how do i stop my emotions and tears from spilling out uncontrallably.

♥ YAN Blogged @
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